I can’t even call today’s run a run. Not even 1/2 a mile in to it I was emotional. I felt tired. I didn’t want to run. I didn’t want to think about the 1/2 marathon. I was just a mess. I wanted to go crawl back into bed and cry.
It’s been a couple hours, and I’ve regained control of my emotions, mostly. I am still so frustrated with running. I don’t feel like I’m improving, I feel like I’m getting worse. I just need a good run. I need to not feel tired, and I need to not feel pain.
Logical me thinks it’s got to be nutrition and form related. I actually don’t think I’ve been eating enough and that’s why I feel so tired. Emotional me thinks I just don’t have the heart, and I’m beating myself up inside. I keep thinking I should just toughen up and power through. Yet I can’t. UGH! Bad run day.